In 2000, Brandon was a sixth-grade student at Mario Umana / Joseph Barnes School and a Max Warburg Fellow. The views expressed are solely his own. We are honored to share his essay with you. Please do not copy, republish or repost the following content without express written permission from The Max Warburg Courage Curriculum.
There are many ways to show courage. An act of bravery on a battlefield, being composed and in control when facing a deadly illness or disease, or even overcoming poverty. My story of courage is a bit different. I don't know for certain if it is indeed an act of courage, but it is definitely working in the face of adversity.
I am thought to have Asperger's Disorder. I am a high-functioning autistic. Some autistics crawl into themselves and don't speak, but I don't have any visible signs of autism. I do have fine motor skills trouble and extremely poor penmanship and organizational skills. I tend to lose and forget things and my senses are overloaded. I hear sounds long before anyone else can. I see minute things that no one else can see - I don't miss anything. The most important symptoms I have are ADD and OCD. Things get to me, like germs and sanitary issues. I get easily distracted and tend to focus on one interesting subject and tune out the other. And sleep, what I would give to sleep solidly through the night - it has been years! I suffer from broken sleep or no sleep at all. I also get very antsy. I sometimes feel like my brain will explode. I am a loner - I don't appreciate social interaction as much as kids my age. This alone makes me very different.
School years have been difficult. I crave my personal space and being around kids all day makes me feel like I'm going to jump out of my skin. I try to be very good in school; I am usually not a behavior problem. But with an impulsive nature such as mine, I cannot resist giving answers. Sometimes I forget myself and blurt out the answers. This makes for dislike, tension and taunting from my peers. I am called many names. I am intelligent and this seems to be more fuel for those kids that taunt me. Reading is my escape and comfort! Knowing that I am different or unusual doesn't bother me. I feel people should appreciate the differences humans have - this is what makes us unique. Despite my thirst for knowledge and love of literature, going to school is a real chore. It's painful to never "fit in" and be at the mercy of others' insults.
My ultimate goal is to be a scientist. You need school to do this, so even though I challenge my parents, they push me on. They insist I get a proper education. It is because of my dad, and especially my mom, that I am not in a special needs class. I attend an Advanced Work Class and am presently enrolled in a Scholars program. I know my parents love me. I don't always agree with them, so we lock horns often. It takes all the courage I have to face a hostile class and it takes all my parents' courage to continue to back me up when there are no clear choices. I promise not to waste their efforts. No matter what I become, I'll be better at it because of their drive and faith in me.
So, as you see, battlefields are different from everyone and for me, life is a series of many little battles. My survival depends on me facing every new day with a fresh outlook. I can't always do it. Bravery doesn't always get rewarded with a medal, but my mom says being comfortable with who you are and your true self is the ultimate reward. In order for me to survive, I must be comfortable in my own skin, sure of who I am and what I want. I am learning to do this every day and for me, it takes courage.